Monday, April 19, 2010

"Yes Please" to Thin

hmm... so this is supposed to be my 400 calorie day and I've eaten 820? Which sucks balls. Why do I disappoint myself! I've already done an hour of walking (30 minutes each) and I need to walk 130 minutes to burn 420 calories (according to calorieking.com) and I am probably going to walk loads tonight. So if I do that walking and don't eat anything else I could would be in the 400 calorie range. I really hope I don't screw up.

Anyhow, so people have been calling me pretty A LOT lately. I don't know if its the new clothes or something but people keep telling me that I am a really pretty girl. And you know what? I think its bullshit. I can't be pretty, not with the fat I have circling around my stomach, thighs and arms. When that goes away then yeah maybe, I'll be pretty. But until then I refuse to believe their lies!! Oh, and I am still waiting for the day that a guy calls me pretty. I might believe it then a little bit more. Their opinion is the only one that would make a difference at this point. (I have issues)

But yeah my day was filled with drama and shitty friends that stab me in the back as I forgive them over and over again.

Also, i've always wanted to be that girl with the nice indie clothes and stuff. They always look so nice and put together. THINSPO!! :) (these pictures aren't all indie and stuff but I like them)







Eden xox

4 comments:

  1. nope u dont have issues, i completely get u =)
    nice thinspo

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  2. Dont worry under 900 is better than under 1000!!
    You're doing so well lovely, I completely admire you :)
    xx

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  3. haha thanks you guys! you make me feel all warm and fuzzy!

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  4. dont' worry! it's actually quite good 800cal :D and the exercise you might actually lose alot of weight tomorrow :D yay!

    just go walking and walk alot =) it will help

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