Wednesday, April 14, 2010

I don't want to jinx it but...

Today is a VERY good day. And it has got to get better. Because it is only 8 am. So all of the things that made my day fan freaking tastic happened in the middle of the night.

#1(the most exciting thing): I finally got the courage, with the help of a very good friend, to talk to that boy. And guess what! he doesn't hate me!! ahaha, that's an accomplishment. (I am probably more excited than you are about that) I didn't really expect him to reply last night but low and behold he did. It just happen to be while I was sleeping. Whats up with these late nighters?

#2: My hair is done and my new outfit is on. I am sure I don't look bad but I always think I do. Changing this morning was a nightmare because I know the clothes could look SO MUCH BETTER. If only that one little fact were true: if I was skinny. But I am not.

As I was over my friends house last night we were taking and she told me some very interesting things about myself. She said "I don't understand why you don't have a boyfriend. Your just so pretty, and so nice" And she wasn't just trying to make me feel better she was actually serious. But I just couldn't believe her. I'm like yeah well I'm fat, and ugly. That's why I don't have a boyfriend. I am nice but you gotta get past my ugliness first. But she said I was wrong (being legit serious again) and it makes me think... maybe I actually am somewhat attractive... I wish I could see it!! :(

Yeah so I hope the rest of my day goes as well as my morning. Wish me luck with the boy!


  1. happens to me. i know the clothes i have are pretty, just not on my fat body.
    and i bet you ARE pretty, especially if she said it to you that seriously.
    i dont get told im pretty very often so i know im not. gotta work on that.
    anyway good luck with that guy ;) im happy he replied to u.. i wish my guy did

  2. It's really hard for me to tell how I actually look so I'm constantly second guessing other people's opinions or my own when I have a lapse and think "Gee, I don't look that bad...". Good luck with the guy! I hope everything goes well~ I'm really excited for you :)

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  4. i want a new outfit :D i'm sure the only reason you don't have a boyfriend is cause you don't put yourself out there like me ! were the same .. i don't consider myself an option yet so :/