Do you ever have any random bursts of reality? I've been having a lot of those lately. I feel that I live my live through a "rose tinted glass" and I see the world as a beautiful place and when ever there is a chance of knowing the bad side I ignore it because I don't need to see the bad side. So I live one way, and then through out the day I get a reality check (literally) because I see things a different way then I usually do and it scares me because I am not sure which life I want to live. Reality makes sense to me. Everything that happens just makes sense. But it never stays. I want it to stay because I feel like I get the world and whatever happens in it. I feel superior. Then I go to my normal state where things confuse and scare me and I ignore my feelings because I don't understand them. I don't know whats wrong with me.
I have very good news ladies!! The boy I like texted me today, we had a whole conversation, and I got the courage to ask him to the movies on Monday. AND HE SAID YES! SO excited :D But I am the type of person who doesn't believe it till it happens. There is always a chance he could ditch, or something else will come up. I don't know. But there is a little sunshine coming my way today and there may be a little happiness??
Never give up girls! Don't ever let anyone tell you to give up! Because no one can tell you the outcome of a situation until you experience the end.