I am so sorry that I disappointed all of you. I just didn't wait. I couldn't. One little thing happened and I snapped. I said I can't do this anymore and just hacked away at my legs. It was horrible.
If you ever want a boost of confidence, cut the words fat and ugly on your legs. (sarcasm)
Every cut I made took away all the confidence I had in me, the little that I had to begin with. I was left with nothing. I felt so alone.
I was so depressed after that because I needed that confidence back. I needed it more now then ever and I couldn't go on with out it. So I built myself back up. Little by little. I could not stay in that state of mind for very long. It was so hard. But I got some of myself back.
I know that I still have those cuts on my legs, that have to heal. But as they do, I will heal along with them.
I am worth it. I am beautiful and I will only get more beautiful. I have the best friends in the world. Not a lot of them, but the ones I have are amazing. My body does not deserve any more cuts.
Thank you for all of your support. I know I am not alone in this.
I think I am going to take this weekend and get a list of my goals and motives together just like ElikaPeka23 did (shes amazing!) and try to find that confidence again.
I am so glad to have all of you!!
"There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
I'll be posting again on Tuesday maybe :)