Saturday, May 15, 2010

the beauty of the human mind

"To dream anything that you want to dream. That’s the beauty of the human mind. To do anything that you want to do. That is the strength of the human will. To trust yourself to test your limits. That is the courage to succeed."
Bernard Edmonds

I wrote down my goals, established what I wanted to do and now I am making it happen. I don't know how, but its happening.

1)Live each day for what it is worth. No regrets
2)Never cut again
3)Lose 20 pounds before prom.(~60 days) *Losing weight is getting easier now*
4)Be loved, liked, and thought about everyday by someone else. *I hope he thinks about me as much as I think about him*
5)Have a date for prom *Might happen*
6)Make a decision on my next tattoo
7)Establish who my friends are and start letting go of people who drag me down. *This has been done for me*
8)Watch the sunrise with someone
9)Go to a house party *Had my own house party*
10)Save $1,000
11)Be more confident (It's coming...) *This is a hard one, especially with so many uncertainties.

They guy I like definitely likes me back. We both know we like each other. We both can't wait till the next time we see each other.

This may be the last weekend I am single. Which is a terrifying thought.

I am so scared that he will change his mind about me.

I want to wait to have sex, he doesn't seem to be the type to wait. I don't know how I'd be able to handle myself if I gave in. I don't know how I'd handle myself if he decided I wasn't worth waiting for.

Maybe he really won't care. But I never know, so I think about it all the time.

I just got to keep telling myself that he is just as shy as I am and it isn't easy for him. He probably doesn't know what the heck he is doing any more than I do.


  1. im the same.. i worry and think about things, sex, does he like me, etc etc.
    but i think we'll just have to wait and see. every experience we make, good or bad, will be worth it in the long run, even if we get hurt, we can always get back up and learn from our mistakes.

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