So during the week, the good days and the bad days have to even themselves out. I can never have a really good week and leave it at that. No, there has to be bad days to make up for it. There is always a balance.
So my theory is that if I've been having a really bad, terrible, really bad couple of days, then I must be having some really really good days ahead of me. And I am thinking that tomorrow will be that start of that. That's my plan, that I won't let anything get me down tomorrow because it just has to be a good day. It just has to.
I was talking to the boy yesterday, stayed up all night texting him. The topic of my virginity came up and he asked why I still was one. I told him that I am not ready to have sex, that I am waiting for a boy to realize that I am better than just sex. So it is out there now, I don't have to think of the consequences anymore because there is nothing I can do at this point.
I will say no. If he doesn't want me then there is nothing more I can do. I'm willing to give him everything, its his choice to take it.
Thank you to all who have been commenting my blog, helping me realize that I am not alone in this. I read all of your blogs when I have time.
We all need to stay strong. I'm hanging on just as tight as you are.