Thursday, May 20, 2010


Yeah so I've been having a really hard couple of days. But I have a theory.

So during the week, the good days and the bad days have to even themselves out. I can never have a really good week and leave it at that. No, there has to be bad days to make up for it. There is always a balance.

So my theory is that if I've been having a really bad, terrible, really bad couple of days, then I must be having some really really good days ahead of me. And I am thinking that tomorrow will be that start of that. That's my plan, that I won't let anything get me down tomorrow because it just has to be a good day. It just has to.

I was talking to the boy yesterday, stayed up all night texting him. The topic of my virginity came up and he asked why I still was one. I told him that I am not ready to have sex, that I am waiting for a boy to realize that I am better than just sex. So it is out there now, I don't have to think of the consequences anymore because there is nothing I can do at this point.

I will say no. If he doesn't want me then there is nothing more I can do. I'm willing to give him everything, its his choice to take it.

Thank you to all who have been commenting my blog, helping me realize that I am not alone in this. I read all of your blogs when I have time.

We all need to stay strong. I'm hanging on just as tight as you are.


  1. its good u said it. its a huge relief. when i said it to my guy i was like "phew, its finally out" and he still wants me so dont worry, there are guys out there that think of u as more than sex =)
    ur doin great! and im sure the good days will come again. without sadness there cant be happiness =)

  2. Awww doesn't it feel better to let him know? You never know what might end up happening. He could understand completely. And if he doesn't then he isn't good enough for you.

  3. I'm really glad you put it out there. That was brave and he would be stupid to pass you up because of that. I hope tomorrow is really great for you!

  4. i love the sentence in your about me section - "I've always wanted to be something a little different than who I am." that is perfect, that is exactly what i feel like :] xx