Yesterday I ate a total of 600 calories, which is only 200 away from my goal. It was pretty easy to do this because when I had a whole bunch of food in front of me at the end of the night, instead of purging it all up, I just didn't swallow it. Which sounds gross, the whole "chew and spit" thing but really, sometimes you need to do it. After a while you just want to get it over with and you don't end up wanting to eat everything. Might do this more often I think...
After work last night I could not go to sleep at all, and by the time I had to get up and get ready for school, I hadn't even fallen asleep. So, I just refused to go to school. It would've been pointless. But I knew that I needed sleep so I chugged about 1 cup of milk, which I just found out is about the equivalent of 125 calories. And I ate a bowl of fruit loops, 170 calories. So, that just means less food today.
My dad is actually making dinner tonight. Spaghetti. Which used to be my favourite food but not any more. Because it is a recipe for fatness. The noodles alone are like 300 calories!! So I might just take 2-3 bites and throw the rest out. I can't chance eating more than that.
Yesterday on Dr. Phil he was talking about child obesity and O. M. G. It was so so so so sad. These 13 year olds weigh more than I do!! And then he brought out chicken fat and showed how much 40 pounds look like and I was about to cry. It was just so damn sad! And today he is doing something like the debate on fat. Sounds interesting...
Anyways, I hope you all reach your goals for the day!
Eden xox
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Chew and spit is something which is difficult to get used to for me but i prefer it to purging and so ive done it before. didnt ejoy it much though to be honest.
ReplyDeletepasta is scarily fatty =(
stay strong! x
i don't prefer cs for purging .. it's much easier to purge for me, it's actually a piece of cake if i can put it that way .. i'm a very 'gaggy' person, i gag just by walking into a public toilet haha so that's what i did tonight when i went out for dinner, didn't plan to though :/
ReplyDeleteI watched the debate on fat with Dr. Phil earlier today. It was really interesting. I found it hard to believe that the obese African American lady had been working with a dietitian and personal trainer for two whole years and hadn't lost any weight. Hmmm.
ReplyDeleteI found that interesting too. Either it was a horrible dietitian and personal trainer or shes lying.
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